New House!

As some of you know, or don't know, I moved back to GA a few weeks ago and it has been a hectic move. We purchased our first home earlier this month ( Yay, us!) so we are extra excited about decorating.

The house is small, much smaller than the one we were renting, but this is one is ours and that's all that matters. It's a nice three bedroom with ceramic tile. It has a beautiful mosaic in the foyer. True enough, the floor almost gave me a heart attack w/ the baby (he bumped his head 3 times in 1 week...surprised no one called social services on me).

We've got a huge back yard, which is perfect for the royalty (my kids). There is what the former owners called a "dollhouse"-- but it is actually a real little house in the backyard. Very small, one room, has a porch with a big window and the roof has vents. Too cute. And it has a garden! The kids can't wait to get in it. The baby calls it a "castle".

The gov't moved our things out of storage (where they were for a year), and I will tell you. A majority of it went in the trash or to the goodwill. Things didn't go with the color scheme, clothes were to small, etc. So we are literally starting fresh. I have washed every piece of clothing we have ever owned and am in the process of folding it and putting it away. Joy.


I counted, and I have been to Home Depot 25 times in one week. Don't even ask.

We just got our living room furniture yesterday. We finished painting the night before. The guest bathroom needs to be completed. It has painters tape everywhere (tee hee, Rachel...just paint over it, right?). My husband took the mirror down and threw it out (per my request), spackled the wall and took down the old towel racks and toilet paper holders. The tub is hideous, but I plan on replacing it anyway. It needs to be finished (painted around the trim...paint removed FROM the sink and cleaned up.)


So I thought I would come and share some things and get some ideas too And now that I've got you all caught up...let's get to decorating....


PS: I just found out I have to entertain this weekend for this weekend's UFC fight.

She should be shot...

I know, I know...it has been a while since I have been back. I have this new found urge to blog. Sounds typical, though. The more that goes on in my life, the more I need to talk about it.....freely. Well all is well.

RECAP: Hubby is home safe and sound from Iraq. I thank God for that, because I know someone else's husband did not come home. I'm thankful my kids have their father back. We're in the process of looking for a house, which has been an ordeal within itself. Apparently, we have found one of the most ridiculous people to buy a home from. We made an offer on the house (which has been on the market since January), and the "gentleman" who lives in NY will not send the offers back, return phone calls, but finds the huevos to attempt to make the dumbest counter-offers I have ever heard. For example, he said no to paying the closing costs. That was fine. We would've gotten over like a fat rat if he would have. He refuses to put an irrigation system in as well as seed the back yard (which looks sub-Saharan). We could even do without that too. Instead, when he finally decides to respond to the counter-offer, he says he will "raise" the purchase price of the home $2100 and we pay the other half of the closing costs.

*crickets*


Doesn't that sound like we pay all of the closing costs in the end? We countered back and gave this guy a week to respond. We did that the last time and he sent back 3 of the 10 pages back....12 days later. I'm at the point where I'm about to say "Keep your *@)$%ing house".


Work is GREAT-- it is picking up! I signed two contracts in a week, which is a GOD send for me! I was so excited. I am even getting more inquiries. I tell you, calming down and saying the Prayer of Jabez every day certainly does help. I started an advertising campaign with The Knot, which will begin on June 14th. Which reminds me, I need to write a press release!

I'm preparing to go down to GA (as I am in Baltimore) next week for a wedding. I hope to generate some new business as well. I have a great wedding planner working with me on this one-- its definitely a big deal. This could mean a lot of great business for me if this goes right!

My daughter is having closing exercises for her Pre-School today. I am so excited for her. She has grown so much-- socially, emotionally and mentally. She is an awesome little person. Even my son has developed beautifully! Despite the unconventional and almost rough first few years they have had, they have turned out to be beautiful, healthy children.

Thank God for that.

The Cup is Half Full or Half Empty...

Well I finally got it done! A week from Wednesday will be one week since I got my tits chopped off. So to speak. It was well needed, and I feel three hundred pounds lighter. But I do miss big breasts though. Nobody, but a woman who has big breasts, will understand-- but this is somewhat depressing. I finally looked at myself today and just cried. My baby came into the room and said, "Mommy can you turn on the tebbavision?" and when I looked up and she saw me crying she almost cried herself. She is such a sweet heart. She kissed my hand and asked what was wrong. I told her nothing.

I seriously feel like I look like a little boy. I guess its like when you get your hair cut after having waist long hair. It is going to take a while for me to get used to. I'm not going to look at any pictures of myself, nor am I am going to look at my breasts again. I guess I have to get the "old me" out of my head, and get ready for the new me. I know...super Psycho, but what are you going to do?


My poor husband has been a prince through out this whole ordeal, being in Iraq he is doing as much as he can possibly do all the way over there. I've been an emotional wreck, and he has been there to quell all of my fears.

I had a stupid cyber battle at that jackass site that I moderate. Well its not a jackass site, its just frequented by one or two jackasses. And it really riled me up. What riled me up even more is that I took the high road and still have more cursing to get out. Hence my presence at my blog.

Im tired. I went to the PS today and he removed the gauze, stitches and drains. I go back on Wednesday. Im so tired. I took a Valium to calm my nerves b/c right now I could put my foot through someone's face. I think I'll curl up in my bed and watch a movie and wait for DH to log on.

Iraq's Free Cheese Line....or...Mr. President, Your Asshat Is On Backwards

When Louisiana senators requested $60 million dollars for flood prevention and preparation, they were denied the funding for "the war on terrorism and expansion of homeland security".

Let us take a look of the fabulous things that money have been spent on:

* Well, we've found bigger and better tools to find Osama Been Forgotten. Wait...breaking news, those have been traded in for 4,000,000 Chia Pets.

* Screeners at airports now chew Winterfresh gum instead of the regular Juicy Fruit as they smack, chew and bark orders at you...if they are watching you.

* Screeners have received better training to teach them to stop my kids' godfather for his handheld iPod, but let the woman with the hidden RPG in a 50 ft ski case go.

* Airlines have received their No-Fly list from subscribers of Nickelodeon and PBS Kids newsletters, mainly 18 month old toddlers.

* To provide canoeing, rope knot, and birdhouse making activities for those at Camp Iraqi aka Guatanamo Bay.

The list is endless! Hell, I feel more secure already! Forget that the nation's number one and ONLY airline remains unsecured-- and in the past year and a half we have witnessed nothing but train bombings.

The Lady Senator of Louisiana had it right, "When the people of Louisiana asked for help, they were told to get behind the people of Iraq".

Maybe we can ask them for some donations. Hell, they're getting at least 120 billion from us, not mention ALL of our military and civilian focus.

Brother, can you spare a dime?

Diddy, Jay-Z give $1 million to Red Cross - Katrina hits entertainment - MSNBC.com Okay, so I sit here with a troubled back and am reading about all the donations given to the Red Cross and other charities by celebrities. Let's take a gander:

P. Diddy-- $1 million
Jay Z-- $1 million
Oprah-- $5 million
Celine Dion-- $1 million
Steven Spielberg $1 million
Hilary Duff $250,000
Nicolas Cage-- $1 million


So far, from what I have heard and seen, Oprah has been the one to donate the most. So riddle me this, why is it when you make $30 million PER picture, you can only spare a measly 1 million dollars? How is it that your films gross over $350 million dollars but all you can give is $1 million dollars?

What type of example is that? You know damn well that all those black folx own at least 1 Jigga CD. True, some might be bootlegged, borrowed, etc. But you know they bought at least one of his joints. This friggin' kills me.

Got a date with a scapel

Aha! Well in the craziness of this emotional day-- I did get a piece of good news. My surgery is scheduled for September the 28th at 11:15. I'll have to do a pre-op visit with the hospital and have another consultation with the plastic surgeon soon. The 20th to be exact, at 1:00 p.m. I still don't know how I feel about going to a C cup. As much as my back hurts, the emotional and mental part of me is going ot break down-- I know it. But I'm hoping for the best. I'm hoping that I will scar and heal well. Hoping that my areolas don't go "white". Doc says in the event that they do, that he will arranged for it to get "tattooed". SWEET JESUS!!

So Blessed......or....Counting My Blessings

After that last entry,I had to go and hug my kids. My heart was just broken. To see the police chief break down on the news and cry on Oprah about how the children were being raped....to see Mayor Nagin just break down on the starving children in the Superdome...to hear the survivors talk about the children getting sexually attacked on their way to the bathroom-- it just took its toll on me. I love my kids and I could never imagine going through something like this with them, or having something like that happen to them. And it's because of my love for my babies that my heart breaks for their mothers and their little limp, violated bodies and irrevocably damaged souls.

God Bless the Child.....or.....I would cut it off and shove it down his throat

This is from a forum that I frequent:

My mom called me last night extremely upset...ro
She is a corrections officer and some of the co's had to go pick up two trucks full of refugees down the street from the Work Release Center. In the truck was an old woman that would just stare off into space. She would not respond to anyone. They asked her daughter if she was okay. She said that she had been that way since Monday. When the lights went dim in the Superdome she witnessed a woman raped and murdered, then a 2 year old child raped until it died. My mom was so upset and frankly so was I after hearing the story. I don't know what is worse, the fact that the local government did not have enough people in that shelter to ensure that wouldn't happen or the fact that the people around them just sat there and did nothing to help this woman or the child. She wasn't the only one that saw and yet they all just pretended like nothing was going on. It scares me to death to think that something like that could happen amidst so many people and no one even tried to help. They were upset because the government didn't do enough to help them but they don't offer help to those in need. It's just so sad that something like that was allowed to happen.

Just wanted to add an account I heard from Arthell Neville (I think that's her name) She's a news reporter & also the niece of the Neville Brothers. Anyway, she had a cousin in the Superdome that told her of some of the things she saw. One was the rape/murder of a small child and then the death of the offender. Apparently 10 guys who witnessed that tragedy took matters into their own hands & killed the guy who did it. It's just really hard to even wrap your mind around this stuff. I did hear an "expert" say however, that tragedy like this maginfies people's true colors. If you're a wonderful, giving person with a heart of gold.....it will shine thru 100 times more. If you're a rotten, low down SOB that is morally "off"....unfortunately it will come thru 100 times more. I wonder too how many of these people that are doing such horrible things are drug abusers that haven't had any drugs since the hurricane. Somebody forced into a detox situation like that....SCARY.
Just my .02

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!?!?

I too have a three year old, and when Sharon told me about this thread, it literally knocked the air out of me. It makes me extremely mad. The pain and horror that baby must have gone through in its last moments of life. What's sad is that was no one to help him/her. His/her mother is probably wondering where her baby is right now.

How the hell did the government not prepare for this? I dont even mean the hurricane, but in the midst of people searching for higher and drier ground, did they think that the pedophiles, rapists and other violent offenders were going to go their own Superdome? In the midst of sea of lost people, especially children, how could they not provide better protection for them? Did they think that the pedophiles and rapists would show restraint because of the tragedies that were going around them? Absolutely not! After the whole survival rush dies down, they were sure to cave in to temptation-- especially as people are desolate, devastated, stressed and utterly hopeless.

How sick is this-- on so many levels!

Why White America Hates Kanye West or SHUT UP ALREADY!

This is utterly HILARIOUS! Everytime I think about it, I just laugh. Everyone is up in arms over Kanye West's rant on racial inequity and blast of President Bush on NBC's telethon on Friday. Not only did he deviate from the script on one occasion, but on three separate occasions!

I hate the way they portray us in the media. You see a black family and they say we are looting, you see a white family and they say they are looking for food. And, you know, its been five days because most of the people ARE black. And even for me to complain, I would be a hypocrite because I would turn away from the TV because it's too hard to watch. I've even been shopping before even giving a donation, so now I'm calling my business manager right to see what is the biggest amount I can give. And just to imagine, if I was down there and those are my people down there. If there is anybody out there that wants to do anything that we can help about the way America is set up the help the poor, the black people, the less well off as slow as possible. Red cross is doing as much as they can. We already realize a lot of the people that could help are at war right now, fighting another way. And now they've given them permission to go down and shoot us.

George Bush doesn't care about black people. Please call...

Kanye's Shakespearean monologue as cut immediately after his statement about Bush (WOO HOO HEEELLLLLLOOOOO censorship, how ya been!?) . This trips me out, because this is getting so much press and a majority of white Americans are up in arms. Let me see if I can try to shed some light on this situation.

To White Americans, they see no color-- they see poor people getting raped in a crowded sporting event arena, snipers on the roof shooting at helicopters and hospital inhabitants, they see the eldery dying in shopping carts wrapped up in a child's blanket, children crying and screaming from hunger pains.

Black Americans, we see the same thing-- but we see Aunt Jackie trying to get food for her kids, so she has no choice but to "loot" the local convenient store for formula bottles and pampers. We see Uncle Ray who is a diabetic and whose legs are weak, but is sure to die cold, hungry and alone if he doesn't get any help. We see little Damian who is hungry and with tears running down his eyes, hiding his face in his mothers lap.

Now, this isn't the first time we've seen images like this. Black Americans have been second class citizens since this country was built with sweat of their brow and the breaking of their back. We have always been last in line to get the smallest pay and the shortest amount of supplies. So when the media sees something-- they don't see the sheer humanity and utter primitive nature of trying to survive, they see a sensational story-- something to give them an emmy. Although some do capture the raw emotion in an honest and unbiased medium, a majority of the time the damage has already been done.

But back to Kanye. So now the Red cross and NBC issue statements to distance themsleves as far as possible from Kanye and his statements. Hell, even Mike Myers has that, "WTF are you doing look" on his face. Again, Kanye wasn't saying anything that I know I hear black people talking about since this whole thing began. Hell, where are all the white folx in NO? Why is it that when the white family is rummaging through a store for supplies, we choke back tears and stand high with resolve? Yet when the media portrays the black people doing the same "survival looting", they manage to show them carting out TVs, DVD players, etc. The rest of the world shakes an ominous finger in disgust and disbelief. In the little bit of time that other affected areas get, for example in Mississippi, we see white victims lined up quietly, gratefully and humbly on the side of at trailer. In the sesspool of NO, we see blacks going through the garbage, leaving stores with arms full of items. Why are we portrayed so poorly?

I am not a supporter of theft, burglary, rape or violence. But this could have happened anywhere, to anyone at anytime. NO had fallen to mob rule-- it was just a matter of time before the criminals came out and tried to captalize on an already destitute situation. That's what the dregs of socieities do-- they didn't just start that since the hurricane came. And it's true, Katrina, wasn't a racist. She didn't choose to devastate only black people. She landed on several other areas-- the one of primary focus happened to be a city mainly inhabited by blacks. So that is how it becomes a color issue. Don't you think the victims are thinking or have been saying, "If we were white, would they have come sooner?"

Everyone keeps saying that there was no immediate relief. That help couldn't have come during the storm or immediately after. How shameful that is! Ask NYC how many police officers and firefighters they lost when the towers came down. They were right in the middle of it. But again, this is just another show of poor preparation on the behalf of NO government and sorry ass support from the federal government.

But again, back to Kanye. So now, everyone is disgusted. They feel that he took away from the real purpose of the show-- to help the victims. I agree, it was in poor taste to do it during the telethon. However, what a statement it makes to do it on LIVE television when you know the whole world is watching? I'm sure some victims and other black citizens let out a big "You go, boy!" for someone finally understanding and stating their plight. Some people have said, "You don't know how many people would have given, but possibly offended, had he not said that". Then they are bigger hypocrites than the government officials who should have handled this mess. If what one person says can make you not want to give to over hundreds of thousands of people who need assistance, you're the bastard.

Then there are those who want him to apologize, they want to write his publicist, record companies, etc. Get a fucking grip. Instead, why don't you write your President, George Bush, or Louisiana's governor, Kathleen Blanco, or New Orleans' mayor, Nagin and tell them how disgusted you are over their poor preparation and support for Louisiana's citizens. Those of you who want to be mad, be mad at that. Don't get mad at a man who exercised his freedom of speech to tell the world what it looks like from a black citizen's point of view. Really, who asked us? Don't get mad at the man for bringing America's dirty laundry to the forefront and hide behind the "it's not racial" cloak.

Last week, Pat Robertson said that we should assassinate President Chavez of Venezuela because it would be "cheaper than starting a war". This asshat influences many people through his television show, The 700 Club, and he flies off the handle and says something as violent and careless as this. However, in his next breath, he will talk about love, curse Muslim extremism, etc. Newsflash-- there are Christian Extremists too, Patty! Look at those who bomb abortion clinics in the name of God? How about that for homegrown terrorism.

Some how, America can glide over Robertson's comments and almost forgive them unconsciously. After all, he feels he's saying what's on everyone else's mind-- so why can't Kanye. Even after his feeble attempt of an explanation, Robertson is still in the running for Gimp of the Week. What a herb.

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Mr. President, your performance is pure Bush-it

President Bush is the Lord of the Asshats. I mean really? Five Days to get to the victims of Hurricane Katrina? And we all know that had Mayor Nagin not called him out, he'd probably would still be sitting with his thumbs up his tail.

I mean this thing is sad all the way around. How the hell do you not prepare for something of this magnitude and you live on the coast? How the hell do you have a city of disfranchised blacks in a city that is 2/3rds black and 50% of those citizens are poor and have no way to evacuate? I keep hearing people say, "They should have gotten out when they told them to!" And then what? Go where? With whose car, plane or bus? A majority of the people that were stuck in Katrina's midst and died there were those who could not get out-- either they couldn't afford it or had no other means.

How, in a city that is one of the hottest tourist spots in the world do you not forsee or prepare for something like this when every type of analyst told you that it could happen? Journalists have been reporting about this for years! One article is so eerily accurate, you would think he wrote it the day after Katrina's wake.

And the federal government! You've GOT to be kidding me. The day after Tsunami, our government was falling over themselves to get aid there, as not to look like complete dickwads after the whole "let's-go-looking-for-weapons-that-don't-exist-blow-shit-up" expedition in Iraq. They wanted to look like the global protectors again. Dubya got on his hoss and started championing the causes of the poor, underpriveleged and needy.

Ah, must've missed the memo that there are people like that here.

Postscript on that memo: Those people don't own any stock in oil.

Ah! That's why they are forgotten! At any rate, after the bombing of British railways, we sent immediate help. So why the hell did it take five days for our government to do what it is they constantly promise to do? How can you dictate to other countries on treating their citizens, when you completely ignore your own?

Fidel Castro said that he is ready immediately to send over 1,000 doctors and a few thousand tons of medical supplies. Frodo Asshat sends Condoleezza Rice to say that they are "examining all the offers from countries and are trying to assess where and what they need".

Hey, uh, Condi?

If you haven't noticed-- we need everything.

Smooches, if you're out there, honey, I love you! I am praying for you and everyone's safety. I pray that you made it out on time.

Aside from my political monologue, DH goes on his first run tomorrow. Well today. It is like going on 9:30 there now. I am so grateful for the computers! We downloaded Yahoo!'s suck ass messenger for its Phone capabilities. Complete trash. Gmail has one so much better. But a tin can and twine is better than Ya-hell. It was good to talk to him. I doubt I'll sleep tonight. I'll be worried sick. There was a car bombing the other day and few guys died. Just what I needed to hear as he starts his week.

God, please protect my husband.